New Zealand's lakeside landscape
is intertwined
Before the age of 31, I was
never attracted to men, or had a little bit of a liking, and it quickly faded
over time. Most of them were male classmates, all friends, not boyfriends, and
I don't think I could have fallen in love one day.
After the language school,
my father sent me a small fortune for my birthday, some of which I donated to
World Vision, and the rest for a trip to the North and South Islands of New
Zealand, and a seven-day trip to Fiji, and the next morning, while writing a
postcard in the hotel restaurant, a German man asked me, "Can you share a
table with me?" and I said, "Yes..." When I looked up at him, I
felt like I was being electrocuted, and I even knotted my words.
I know very well that I
came to study English in New Zealand to open the door to mission, not to end it
for a momentary relationship. But on the third day we went out together, as part
of a small group to play on a neighboring island, and I couldn't help but
follow him, and I finally learned that he was a Christian, and unfortunately he
didn't want to be a missionary, and on the fourth night, I was arguing, because
he was leaving Fiji for Australia tomorrow, and my prayer was, "If he is
not prepared by the Lord, I will give him three addresses, and if I receive a
letter at one of the addresses, he is prepared by God." To be sure of the
Lord's will, I don't ask Him for His address, I just obey the Lord!
I've been back to New
Zealand for a long time, and I hadn't received any letter from him, and my
heart was broken, and I often cried and curse myself for being stupid, why didn't
I leave his address? Another voice told me that it was the Lord's will, and
while I was in Fiji, I got a verse that said, "I call you to be one."
I thought he was my spiritual partner, but it didn't stand the test and it
ended.
When I graduated from the Australian Mission Training School, I confessed to a senior who said to me, "He's not interesting to any girl," so I went back to my dorm room and declared, "God shut my heart until my other half appears! When my spiritual partner appears, I ask him, "You're too slow to show up. I've waited long enough for God's will.
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