7. Stammer

I sat first person on right

I stood first person on right



During elementary school, I did not know how to become a "stuttering" girl, I speak a word to the next word to be stopped for several seconds to several minutes, my two years younger brother who was smart, sharp, he studied only a year of kindergarten and he had tested private Da-Hua Primary school, but he also up directly to Da-Hua junior school, I always think If there were God, and God is really unfair to me?

Every day after school, my younger brother asked my mother for cookies, then he got many  cookies, I was stuttering to talk to my mother, so that I did not always got cookies, I also suffered that it was my mother slapped on my  face, and then she said: "If you speak  clearly, I will give you cookies too.” I was so shameful and then I ran away. And I saw my younger brother’s hands of biscuits, his mouth full was eating with gusto, and then I walked away with crying, after I thought it which was really very unfair.

Soon after, due to language barriers, my parents took me to see a particular language, National Taiwan University (Specialist), she said: "Your tongue is too long, so you can not pronoun good words; you need to cut the long tongue for chopped point." And she added; "If I do not have surgery, otherwise I can never learn any second language." But today I can speak eight languages, stuttering is not common. But occasionally there will be coming back, and then disappear into the normal. God gave me in English and Spanish, and even Swahili language (East African), I do not want to say; "God, you are so unfair." but I am with a grateful heart, and one day I hope to become a English evangelist for million congregations, and I hope this dream is not too far away.

If the Lord is willing, he will use this humble servant, me. I am willing to have God’s treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from me. (2 Corinthians 4: 7) May I have this ability to shine, and I will seek the kingdom of God first (Matthew 6:33) and I will complete the mission to whom he has entrusted to me.

6. Big Fire

My younger brother and I

were watching at a fish



I was six years old, a fire destroyed our house, we became a family of four homeless people, when the housing is a wooden house, because of electrical fire, it only took ten minutes to burn a row of military dependents of the houses, and my mother put me on diagonally opposite the grocery store, I wore a thin top. In this cold autumn morning, my mother went home, when the fire started. She was looking for her key to open the safe closet, because she was anxiety and she could not find the right key to open it, and the neighbors pulled out my mother, we were nothing out, but we were safe for my family and it sounded sweet as my dear family, after that I think this is the biggest lucky day for us!

After we slept on ground floor for our family, and we were staying over at Wu mother house, the last spot, we moved to live at the military field, where there were not a lot of glass windows and doors, and no furniture, but I would have many playmates.  Because of this fire, then we were close our relationship distance. My mother was very capable, she would be pasted corrugated paper windows and doors, with the single combination of military aircraft into our bed to sleep in, Ding older brother and Ding older sister took my younger brother and I to see the mountain, they rode bikes and carried us, then the long walk before we were close to the foot of this mountain. I often played with fifth Ding’s brother, and Ding's home was the best place in my childhood, and Ding’s mother was the best  mother in the world. Fortunately, the second Ding’s brother was my tutor, when he Just started tutorial, I wanted to sleep, and the Ding’s mother and Ding’s uncle had seven children - five boys and two girls, I liked at their house for dinner, I was eating like the delicious meal with rice crust, I had big, small things, I was looking for the Ding’s brothers and sisters for help, and they were very nice to my younger brother and I.

After our house was built and it was finished at the military community, because our family house with Gau's family house swapped, so I live next door to the Ding’s family, I had the time, I run into Ding’s house, then Ding mother gave me 3 minutes needle soup to eat, and plus the Kangshan chili sauce, this was my favorite food in my childhood. I had been listening to adults, said; "I am a very young age to eat spicy kimchi in the Valley home, I ate it with my tears, even my lips were swollen up like people were biting my face." I like to eat hot peppers, and then I grew up, and I have had more perseverance and tough characters in my spirit.

 Oh God!  Nice for my childhood!

5. Death

      

     The Bible says: 『O death, where is your sting? O death, where is thy victory? 』(Hosea 13:14; 1 Corinthians 15:55) I was a child. I am   fear of death and darkness.

First experience: a sense of fear of death is a plastic Donald Duck, when the people squeeze its body, it will make a sound, and I used a blue ballpoint pen to draw eyes on  Donald Duck, it had painted face with a lot of blue color, then my mother thought that it was too dirty and she threw it away. And she   told me: "It died." At that time, I felt unspeakable sadness and fear of death, the fear of death to any person who is around me or leave me, and he or she gradually disappeared in the world.

Since then, I had not even thought of the darkness from the dead, so I'm afraid of the darkness. When my mother turn off the lights every night, I wake up and turn on the lights, I have always turned on the lights and turn off the lights and I fought with my  mother several times before I gradually fell asleep.

When I studied at Junior college first year, there was a path from the train station to the college, and I walked and sing. When I saw the dark shadows of the trees because of the wind and then they had shaken, I shouted for help, or sometimes, I ran fastly until I left the path and turned into the main road, where there are street lights, after that I began to breathe. That time, there was a movie named "stop breathing", when people ran into zombies, the person should immediately stop breathing, zombies did not   smell of people and they jumped away.

Childhood had often experience: a ghost pressure, it made me, “I can not shout, can not get up, just waiting until the ghosts have automatically gone.”  When I have had the ghost pressure each time, I will recite the names of all the gods in Buddhism, the result was that did not help. In Junior College I went to church in the second semester of second grade, when I had a ghost pressure, I would start with the thought of prayer, and said; "the blood of Jesus has covered me, you (a ghost) do not have any power...." As soon as I was free, I got up and sat on the bed, and then I kept to thank you to Jesus, shortly after I laid back to sleep as being half asleep when the ghost was back to pressure me, I was very blunt with the thought of prayer; "Jesus is here, if you do not leave, you must be finished." The freedom came soon and I   realized that Satan is under the authority of Jesus.

 

     When I believe the Lord more, I have more confidence, but also the less afraid of the darkness, and I am not fear of death, I have known Jesus is in charge of my past, present and future, and He rules in my heart more.

4, A Mental illness of a Female Teacher

I stood in the second row and the 

second person on the right side

I started to babble after four years old, had studied the kindergarten for four years, but I had not learned anything? In the age of eight years, my parents sent me to study my first grade in Primary school, I was learning in the language barriers, because almost every day, I had been slapped by this female teacher, or held a chalk with my lips; one day, one of my classmate girl student was in trouble learning. This lady teacher caught her head to hit the black board, when this girl came home, she had a fever, and her brain which was burned and damaged her brain, and later, she came back to our class at school, she had become stupid. In fact, I was stupid, this teacher said to me too.

This teacher treated me as stupid group students, then my character had been labeled as a fail C, then my mother took me to visit her, and she said: "Your daughter is too stupid to be taught." Then my mother put his Shandong mother position, and very bluntly said to her; "My daughter is stupid, and she would not speak to you on her behalf.   Why has she a bad behavior?"

Very Soon, this lady teacher was admitted to the psychiatric hospital, some my foolish classmates and I took a bouquet of flowers to the hospital and we wanted to see her, but the nurse was refused us to visit her at hospital, but she accepted our flowers.

 
     I thought that day and prayed, then I hope that she has never come back to teach us again.

3. Love black doll

Green Island for Army Training

       When I was a little girl, I liked black female doll, because I thought “black is beautiful”, my mother always said; "It is ugly to die." But I was very stubborn, I liked my black dolls.

       Every girl just likes the white skin, she put on some whitening cosmetics, but I love tanning. I was the fifth of junior senior college, I often went to the beach at noon to hand my body to the sun and I tanned my legs, arms and face, my mother said: "I am   like coal tanning." But I had maintained the black skin for a long time, and with a few days later, I was blisters, peeling, and turning to red skin and I changed into the original condition as before.

      

        When I was Training College in Australia, the second semester of first year, I was called by God to go to Africa, my heart has always had a heart for Africa -  the black heart; it has been beating so strong, and I have been dripping my blood for African events. I hope that I will become a missionary in Africa through the history of  women missionaries, and I hope to become God of the Psalms, it is from beginning to end, I will be a servant of God, that God has entrusted me to complete it, then I'll be satisfied.

2. My Mother gave me away

I was often against my mother, she would often say this story, I would knee and begged for forgiveness. She said: "When I was two years old. I could speak word for a long time; she got answer from an older uncle who introduced US pilot’s family in Taiwan to my mother.

That day, my mother continued say; "The American Air Force pilot and his family, they picked me up with the black car, then they gave some money to my mother for adoption. Because my mother thought; "The Americans treat me as a not talking baby girl, they give me the special education."

When my mother send me away, then she ran after that car, she could not lose me as a mother heart, so that she returned the money back to them, she took me and went home, I did not really know which one is good or bad decision?

1. I was born!

        

I was born in 1961 on 3rd of September of the Republic of China (Taiwan) Armed Forces Day, the poor mother gave birth to me, and she caused heavy bleeding, so that she was admitted for observation. 

The next day, my father held one hand on his bicycle and another hand was holding me back home, my mother had stayed more than two weeks in the hospital, because she needed a lot of blood transfusions to save her.

So I was born, I drank Red Bull milk until weaning date. And my mother always said: "the baby did not drink human milk, but she drink "bull" in the formula, then the future will be like cow as stubborn child."