16. Studying Yu Da Business was Good

In my early age, I often failed all exams; I would find my father to sealed my exam’s papers, because he always felt sorry for me, as long as I had make progress on it. My dad often sighed, and said: "studying is not good, Yu Da business school educated up a little of grade, after that I will get married quickly!"

At junior high school, my parents sent me to the star school – Chang-An Girls’ school, but I had a lot of pressure for every two weeks, there were major changes for my classmates, the good classmates often went better class, and low points’ students came to my class. Then I attended there for three years, and then last two years, I was sleeping on the desk or leaning against the bed side, very few lying on my bed.



       At that time, I only learnt math during  summer vacation, one summer, I found my own love at mathematics, but the language subjects which I hated, because could not remember words or sentences. And my English had to re-exam again.

I was studying very hard, but it could be stressful. If I did not pass my national exam, could I only go to Yu Da commercial class for business?

15. Mama, “Do not hit me”

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Before the age of 12, I had lived each day with afraid of life and fear, and I thought today how many times was my mother beating me? I did not know how to please her to like me as same as my younger brother? As I was born, my face was saying "hit me!" “Why does she always beat me?” The end I did not know where I was wrong?

At that time, I know how to detect the face of color, and I saw my mother a bad mood with her face, I would hide in the closet or under the bed. And so her face was getting better, and then I would come out to play. Therefore I always thought it was my fault, it must be a big mistake on me, but I did not know what was I going wrong? Maybe was I an adopted daughter on TV in the drama?

When I Grew up to ten years old, I watched cartoons on TV, Donald ran away from his home, it went to its biological parents, its shoulders carried a burden to lug with a stick; I acted as this drama. But I did not go far away; my mother had called back and said; “I am her own daughter.” It seemed to draw everything with the full stop, but my heart had those questions, it would never ever have answers for the end.

Until I was thirty-one years old and I lived in Christchurch in New Zealand and I had studied with Youth With a Mission for Discipleship Training School. One female speaker of the inner healing, then she prayed to God for me, I had suddenly been shouting; "Mom! I am not wrong, why do you hit me?" This was the question for over many years, I could not bear guilt and Jesus has released me. At that time, I was crying and crying, Lord Jesus, “you come and save me.” This inner healing speaker frightened, and had been repeatedly said; "You have done nothing wrong!"

 
The fact, I was twenty-nine years old, my mother was due to lung cancer which grew in the lines of her body.  If I have released a little earlier, then my mom would have gone with more peaceful heart.

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In the elementary school, my headache was tutorial teacher house for more study with other classmates in the same class, so I told a lie to my mother and I said: "I'm going to my tutorial teacher house!" I really did go other students home for playing; and then I deceived my teacher and said: "My Mother does not allow me to your home for tutorial class."

Results in an examination, I became second to last, class teacher, same as my tutorial teacher, invited my mother to come to school, and my mother was angry and she hit me in front of students and teachers faces, but I ran forward, and my mother ran after me, until there was no way to run, she  caught me, then she had beaten up a lot, my heart was not satisfied, because last one had failed this exam, he also went to this tutorial house for study. That time, our class teacher had the tutorial study; we need to pay her more money for this class. She was also same teacher for our class. Why did our teacher not ask for last one family? Only my mother came.

Result, I went back to my class teacher’s home for catching up. Where is really justice?  Where is that Jesus?

13. Jesus Has Really Done!



When I was in primary school, and I was afraid to go to my class, because I could not memorize context of Chinese book, when I memorized badly, my teacher would hit my hands with a bamboo stick which had been cut into ten pieces, she bet my hands one times, it would been leaving ten marks. In the winter, my hands could not wash my face with my hands which were very painful to do it. So I hate to go to school.

One day, someone came to our military community, and they invited children to Nishimatsu church, and I was one of them. Sunday school teacher taught us how to pray to Jesus? In the beginning with Dear Jesus, pray for the contents in the middle, then we would finish with the Name of the Lord Jesus we pray, and you remembered to said; "Amen!"

After returning home, I told Jesus, and I desired the typhoon, I thought the typhoon came; I would not need to go to school. I followed the Sunday school teacher's way for prayer, as the prayer was over; then I remembered the end, and said; "Amen!" After that I was waiting until at eight that evening, and I saw the weather report, but this reporter did not report a typhoon, but I went to bed with full of the confidence.

The next morning at five o'clock, my mother said to me; "broadcast reported that one typhoon was coming, and there were no class for elementary school students." I turned toward the wall, and said softly; "Jesus, you take it seriously!" 

12. Run Quickly



I grew up very art and dreaming, and often made the mistakes. One day, at home, I made the green spring pancakes, and made a dough, put in green spring onions, then I had made pancakes by my hands, and I put into a fry pan, then I fry it, after that it turned out more smoke more black until the pan was being burned into a big hole, and I just picked up fry pan and looked at this hole, then I saw my mom who just entered, her angry fire was hitting our roof, I threw away the fry pan and I  flew, then my mother ran after me, I ran from the fifth of village of Women's Federation to fourth of village, and finally my mother hold-ups me, and then she said to me: "Go home," I was being beating more by her.

I was so pity. At school, my teachers were beating me; at home I was being hitting by my mother. I always asked; “Why does God not deliver me from them?”

11. My Genius Younger Brother

In rear is my younger brother

As my genius younger brother was nine months, he walked and talked. In the eyes of our parents who had the great expectations in Hope, then my genius younger brother taught me how to speak and taking me to play video games at Top Good, and he was best in all.

In my childhood, I was half a head taller than my younger brother, we were often fighting and fighting, then my mother often said; "I am tired of you both, and the two are enough!" He had in trouble outside from time to time; I was staying at home all day long. In mother's dictionary:  one of her children made mistakes, another child had been beaten to accompany with him or her, because my mother did not want another child laughed at him or her who was being beaten, my younger brother, made wrongdoings every day, I had to accompany him by my mother’s beating every day – we were being beaten, plus knelt.

Once, my younger brother and his classmate went out with a dozen girls in their school and play at pub, they had been arrested, sent back to school for discipline. In addition, when he examined the private high school, he actually fell asleep in the examination room. The junior college exam results were being announced, and my younger brother took the test which was also good, he wanted to study at New World, but my father would like him to study engineering, and his score was more than enough to study star Junior College, but he was angry at our parents, he resigned to my junior college, as he said: "do not study the new world, study star; do not study stars, study Fu Hsing Junior College .... ." Then my younger brother studied Architect in his first year, there were often people around me, they wanted to beat him up. My male classmates said; "Your younger brother is too proud." That time, the new students needed to accept the school seniors training or the tough orientation, even the girls that I knew; they also trained the new ones until they would come to the second grade, they would get out this misery time.

My genius younger brother, once he was surrounded by a dozen seniors and they beat him badly, when there emerged one who was fighting for my younger brother to others. He became my younger brother fighting accompany, his name is Jin Gao who have helped my younger brother,  Jin Gao was beating others, he often got demerits; because of his good English, each time, the English Speech Contest, he was on behalf of the school which he participated it and he got a good prize, then our junior college used his prize to kill his mistakes. After that my younger brother and Jin Gao became friends, they often brought people to gang war on the streets.

My younger brother could not stand at Fu Hsing, so that he tested and inserted to another Junior College – Shi Zheng Architectural Subject, then they had to read six years, there he met many good friends in the same class, when he was in the exam, he went to sleep and  his classmates were staying up all night long and but my younger brother had better exam scores than his classmates but also, he was really good. Yeah!

My younger brother also went to church with me for some period of time, he said: "Wondering the Church!" And he did not stay, and even many church sisters have liked him. But he did not pay a any patience, and he accessed to his own world. As his car sales clerk, then he climbed much higher and higher, even his heart has given to his business, and he was really so far away from God. May God have mercy on him!

When he was young, he was thin; his body on both sides of the ribs which were  as a keyboard, and the growth of his age, his weight was up to one hundred kilograms (two hundred pounds). When he was in the shower in the bath tub, he stepped on it, and he broke it; and then he wanted to lose some weights, and his efforts have also been progress. As our home decoration, I specifically requested the supervisor for the most expensive material which was also the solid bath tub. As result, my genius younger brother's legs as elephant’s foot had broken twice. Wow! He was very good!

10. Stealing Money

One right side: there were my father,

my younger brother and I



One day, I stole a few coins to buy bubble gum, but my mother caught me later, and she asked me; "Which hand is being taken money?" Then I answered "The left hand." After that, she hit my left hand hardly, it had swollen like a mountain high, then she took me to the doctor and said: "I fell…. ."

After returning home, my mother told me; “You need to remember this lesson, not to steal money again.” Since then, I did not dare to steal money or steal anything from others wherever big or small.

I have already learned my stealing lesson, after that I have never stolen from others and keep a honest way. There were no a mother who would bit me, because she has passed away for 20 years. I love her who has talked me unforgivable lesson in my life. “Do not steal!”