20. My Classmates as my friends

Wen-juan, Yi-wen, Mei-Lin and I



When I was studying, the girls had to live together on campus. First grade, my classmate friends had got into four sisters, I'm the oldest, Mei-ling is the second one, Yi-wen is the third one, and Wen-juan minimal age as last. But Wen-juan was got married firstly, she married our teacher at chemical engineering, then they went to the United States; and then Yi-wen got married second and she married to the business boss; after Mei-lin married to her colleagues in the chemical company, Mei-lin and Yi-Wen had both invited me to be a maid of honor, and then for me, I am a happy single missionary and serve my Jesus in overseas.

First grade, I like Bear, she looked so beautiful, and very fluent in English, but my math and chemistry were very good, then I could teach her. But she liked Ami, gradually, they became the good friends; then Wenjuan had her best friend, and how about me? I had gone to the church. After that, I got along with the male students in the class, they were best friends that time, we had an old class leader, he was five years, there were three years as our class leader, and there were other male students as the same class, we went to natural pool for swimming, or biking to the northern part, because the female students, most of them had the boyfriends, I found that male students was very simple and very sense of righteousness.

Once, my male classmates had been visited to my church by me, then I was very excited, my Pastor who praised me. But I had only prayed for them before meeting for thirty minutes, and they all came.

O God! Thank you! Give me the good classmates; I did not blank in my youth. Youth was very nice!

Junior College fifth year

Trip to Hua-lien

(I was first row, first on left)

19. Chemical Engineering Genius

Hong Kong Skating on Wheels



I entered Junior College, my most subjects were not good, only chemical was a single good show, on the first test, I got 94 points, I was being certainly by the teacher, but also by other chemical teachers gave me certainly. When I took the test each time with hundred points, my teacher only registered 99 points. Then I was keen on mathematics, chemistry, and experiments were all very interested in; I hoped that I would become an outstanding scientist.

As for the Chinese, English and some memorized subjects, my scores could only  pass them, and my study was the designed work, generally the girls were not keen on the science, maybe I was an exception, my last two years at Junior College, I was often before the examination, I taught the classes, because I had already finished study, and then I could help others, but also I had reviewed again, why not?

God was in my life, was there a plan? At that time I did not know? But I knew there must be a God in charge for all.

18. Admitted to Junior College for the 100 Taiwan Dollars

Hong Kong Port



My brother had a tutor, and my mother said; "His tutor can lend me for two weeks and I help to prepare for my exam." This tutor had taught me the KK phonetic spelling in English because I could not, I often relied on the memorize the letters by one letter to another one, during two weeks time, I loved reading English words, as I had got the treasure in the earth.

Junior College entrance examination came; no one would give me stress, my family tutor said to me; "As long as I can be admitted to Junior College, he will give me a hundred Taiwan dollars." I worked for the hundred dollars; and I studied hard, after the results of examination, I got into the five-year Junior College. My total score was enough, but Chinese subject lost by two points, I was not admitted to Medical College as a nurse. I won a hundred dollars from my younger brother's tutor's pocket, and I also studied another junior college's Department of Chemical Engineering.

It is very good!

17. Crying Power

Antigua, Guatemala with Guatemala

tranditional dress at my homestaying

Since I could remember, I loved crying. My mom went back to clinic as a nurse, I was crying for several days, until my mother had given his work up, then she went home to be a full-time mother.

This effort, I was often under the pressure of the grievance which would be released naturally. And I remembered I was in Chang - An Junior High school, there was a girl from my class, she came to school late, and she said; "Her grandfather had a car accident." We heard her reasons; but I burst into tears on that spot, as if my grandfather general. Because l was full of emotion, then often compiled some of the sadness story for a city, then let myself to cry; I have often said; "So touch me!" I like the Bible, David, is the emotional fellow, very few people would read Psalms crying, but I cry, and I will overflow out without reservation.

On the mission fields, I also cry frequently, it gives me the strength to move forward. Crying, there is all the pressure which can be released. A missionary teacher said; "crying of the missionaries are reducing depression or pressure." And I think that I was soft inside, but tough outside, but a good cry, it will be appeared my meek and gentle, and we need the Lord Jesus who comfort us. When I have stress, but also I pretend that I am strong, I am so easy to hide my problems. After period of time, I am easy to get sick. I had cried well, so that I have had power to overcome in mission field for 19 years (until 2010), it might be an emotional outpouring cry; it is a good way to release stresses.

Crying is very effective for me, how about you?



16. Studying Yu Da Business was Good

In my early age, I often failed all exams; I would find my father to sealed my exam’s papers, because he always felt sorry for me, as long as I had make progress on it. My dad often sighed, and said: "studying is not good, Yu Da business school educated up a little of grade, after that I will get married quickly!"

At junior high school, my parents sent me to the star school – Chang-An Girls’ school, but I had a lot of pressure for every two weeks, there were major changes for my classmates, the good classmates often went better class, and low points’ students came to my class. Then I attended there for three years, and then last two years, I was sleeping on the desk or leaning against the bed side, very few lying on my bed.



       At that time, I only learnt math during  summer vacation, one summer, I found my own love at mathematics, but the language subjects which I hated, because could not remember words or sentences. And my English had to re-exam again.

I was studying very hard, but it could be stressful. If I did not pass my national exam, could I only go to Yu Da commercial class for business?

15. Mama, “Do not hit me”

Disciple Training School Staffs and

Students

DTS Foreign Roommates

Before the age of 12, I had lived each day with afraid of life and fear, and I thought today how many times was my mother beating me? I did not know how to please her to like me as same as my younger brother? As I was born, my face was saying "hit me!" “Why does she always beat me?” The end I did not know where I was wrong?

At that time, I know how to detect the face of color, and I saw my mother a bad mood with her face, I would hide in the closet or under the bed. And so her face was getting better, and then I would come out to play. Therefore I always thought it was my fault, it must be a big mistake on me, but I did not know what was I going wrong? Maybe was I an adopted daughter on TV in the drama?

When I Grew up to ten years old, I watched cartoons on TV, Donald ran away from his home, it went to its biological parents, its shoulders carried a burden to lug with a stick; I acted as this drama. But I did not go far away; my mother had called back and said; “I am her own daughter.” It seemed to draw everything with the full stop, but my heart had those questions, it would never ever have answers for the end.

Until I was thirty-one years old and I lived in Christchurch in New Zealand and I had studied with Youth With a Mission for Discipleship Training School. One female speaker of the inner healing, then she prayed to God for me, I had suddenly been shouting; "Mom! I am not wrong, why do you hit me?" This was the question for over many years, I could not bear guilt and Jesus has released me. At that time, I was crying and crying, Lord Jesus, “you come and save me.” This inner healing speaker frightened, and had been repeatedly said; "You have done nothing wrong!"

 
The fact, I was twenty-nine years old, my mother was due to lung cancer which grew in the lines of her body.  If I have released a little earlier, then my mom would have gone with more peaceful heart.

14 Last Number Second

In the elementary school, my headache was tutorial teacher house for more study with other classmates in the same class, so I told a lie to my mother and I said: "I'm going to my tutorial teacher house!" I really did go other students home for playing; and then I deceived my teacher and said: "My Mother does not allow me to your home for tutorial class."

Results in an examination, I became second to last, class teacher, same as my tutorial teacher, invited my mother to come to school, and my mother was angry and she hit me in front of students and teachers faces, but I ran forward, and my mother ran after me, until there was no way to run, she  caught me, then she had beaten up a lot, my heart was not satisfied, because last one had failed this exam, he also went to this tutorial house for study. That time, our class teacher had the tutorial study; we need to pay her more money for this class. She was also same teacher for our class. Why did our teacher not ask for last one family? Only my mother came.

Result, I went back to my class teacher’s home for catching up. Where is really justice?  Where is that Jesus?